2 Weeks to Uncertainty
There are certain decisions that change our lives forever. I have made such a decision about a week before Christmas, and as the countdown eats upon my time in my beloved country (huh?), my innards are tied in knots. Every tick of the clock slams my heart with a hammer. Humor me as I exercise a bit of Q & A to bring my emotions to fore :Q : Do you really want to leave?
A : No, but I think I have to.
Q : How is that?
A : Its actually a stupid mix of pride and economics. My love for the company I work for seems to have hit a huge wall and come to a grinding halt, as my boss has "wisely" promoted the HR Manager of the company to handle the department in charge of elevator maintenance. Not that this move affects me directly but that I have been fooled into believing the company will promote me into the full pledged Sales Manager. See, I have been the junior Sales Manager of the company for four years - effectively filling in the work of Sales Manager in the absence of one. They have dangled the "oh-so-sweet-carrot of promotion" in my face for four years, saving hundreds of thousands on salary and benefits and still have the gall to say that I am not ready to be the Sales Manager. I've been had, ladies and gentlemen ... throw a flower to the fool, for I have been screwed, big time.
On economics ... I live in the
Q : So the decision was made out of spite?
A : Definitely. Spite for the company for having deceived me, spite for the Philippine government, on its inability to raise the country to a more livable place, and spite for myself for having waited this long to realize it was all a sham.
Q : Are you sure you'll do well in another country?
A : I have my reservations, but if success is measured by how much heart I intend to put into this new adventure, then I'm pretty sure I will.
Q : What if you fail?
A : Well there's always the call center industry ... maybe even the proverbial "planting kamotes at home" wont be the death of me.
Q : So ... two weeks to uncertainty?
A : Yeah ... more or less ... I fly on the 11th ...
I hope to change my life in this new chapter of my existence. Wish me luck ... :p
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